#allthefeels to focused to fall in love. Watch everyone you care about get in longterm relationships. It’s a lot like being captain of a sinking ship just off the coast but no one is bothering to notice.

Best thing: is because I feel this way, when I open up to people they tell me they “had no idea, that I should get over it and that everyone is happy… Except for you.” I hate hearing I should forget about it get focused and go work. But i’ve been using work as a way to shield myself from every time I’ve been hurt in the passed. I don’t want to work so hard anymore I just want to play, and there isn’t anyone out there who wants that from me.

I’m hoping that I’ll get so depressed that I get happy again. Like a turning wheel. That should work, right?